At A Lose

Today is a very frustating, bang your head against the wall day. Last nights attempts of feeding Danny didn't go so well. He was wretching even with putting meds in his J port. He decided to spike his temps around 4am and then they dropped out of the sky so far for the day. He is in alot of discomfort today and he's hit hourly doses way before the hour is up with his pain meds, my heart just aches. Danny is passing clots out of his G port now too. Where is all this pain coming from? Why is he still wretching? I'm so sad today. I wish I could just take all this away. What more can we do?